Slow Decay

I think that one song by Dashboard Confessional really weighs on my mind these days as if I feel that there is something inside myself pulling me down and no one seems to understand. I just want to go back where I used to be...back to what I used to be...normal, maybe if there ever really was a normal. I think that for every problem I've ever had, Dashboard has a song that I could put on and just sing my worries away. I wonder if that's true for other people...Do they turn to music when they need inspiration...a way to feel better...a way to feel like they're not alone...or maybe I'm alone and am just lookig for a reason to think otherwise...has anybody even thought about that...Just thinking about that makes me wonder about what lies ahead. I really want to know what's going to happen. What to look out for and if maybe I can change whatever I don't like and keep the rest, but fat chance about that happening. I guess you got to take the good with the bad and hope that you can bounce back from whatever comes your way.

I hate the fact that my internet is acting up on my laptop and I have to go to this really slow computer and sit here with this bright screen glaring at me at a little past eleven...I hate doing things last minute , but god forbid anything goes my way for more than a day. I got so mad at my best friend that I called him up and yelled at him for changing things on my laptop...and downloading crap onto it...so pissed~! But that's for another day...